SLEEPY SONG All the litter starts to cry. DIAMONDS, TEARS AND TRAINS for diamonds tears and trains I need a second skin I'd better shape up this time MARY JANE I guess I've seen her in better shape Chorus
What comes slowely rolling round the corner,
Barely dressed girl in a limousine.
She’s your sun after rainy days
Coming down from the silver screen
And you wish she would stop for you,
You wish she would fall for you
Wishful thinking on a rainy afternoon
And by the time that you’ve just stopped wondering
You will see what you’ve never seen
A simple bird taken from the country,
A sack of bones in a cold machine.
But you still wish she’d belong to you,
And you wish she would talk to you
Wishful thinking on a rainy afternoon
You’re halucinating,
too many days of rain,
on a sunny station,
she’s your walking train….
You wish she’d belong to you
You wish she would comfort you
Wishful thinking on a rainy after, Wishful thinking on a rainy after
Wishful thinking on a rainy afternoon
These wild eyes they look upon you
They search a memory, a certain flavour
They try so hard
Would you like to be so kind to sleep beside me
With your hands upon me
And just love me….
And when the morning comes
I’ll sing my sleepy song
For you to come, for you to come.
I am falling from your deepest sky,
I am falling all apart
Did I have to try so hard
To write it all down in bloody rhyme,
It was written from the start
Chorus
The ink is printed deeper in the page these days
The lines are written on my skin some way
And our tears come streaming like a waterfall
But right now, my girl, I’m keeping my hands on the ball
The maid in the kitchen was on leave today
And the Lord took the first train to the Milky Way
And the bricks piled up high like a wonderwall
Right now, my girl, I’m sitting on top of the world
I’m swimming when I drown, sing it when I’m down
Yeah, I’m rolling my way
And I owe you nothing, I just took all your your money
You are a winner where I’m just a singer, that’s all
Tell me your story and I’ll paint your glory on the wall
It all gets straight and bitter, gets bigger and vague
And the endless roaring thunder makes the bedroom shake
The message comes in easily like a telephone call
But right now, my girl, I’m hanging here, high on the wall
SECOND SKIN
She called me up last night
Said I"ll pick you up outside
Take you for a ride
So I knew ....right away
This girl is gonna stay
Hey Hey
So I stepped into her car
We were heading for the stars
She’d never taken me this far
So I knew ....right away
This girl is gonna stay
Hey Hey
Now we're heading North, it's getting colder
The trees get balder now we're heading North
She used to set me on fire
Chained my soul with barbed wire
She's the one man choir
Hey Hey
Raise my tongue for better lines
For she's the one who's still alive
Guess I knew ....all the way
This girl is gonna stay
Hey Hey
If you ask me about Mary Jane
The way she sings her favourite song.... I don't' know
So the last time you saw her must have been years ago
When her name was sung in every radio show
I forgot the name of who sang that song... well you know
It doesn't matter anymore
Something came breaking through her door CHORUS
What a waste, Mary Jane, what a waste....
I just passed her on my way back home
By her shed along a dessert road
Where she'll be left alone on her solid stone in the sun
Well I still think of Mary Jane
As teasing like a threatening rain
And she always smiles when I dream her face, but you know
"SCARFISH LOVE ON WINGS OF MOJO WIRE" (2005)
SILVERLAKE '91
Where she lives there’s a silver lake
She has seen every single flower
And she knows them all by name
She says I’m awake all of the time
So take your medicine and go to sleep…
Yes I’ve seen her in 1991
When a war had just begun
I was shaking, I could not face anyone
I was just longing for the sun
I’d been awake all of the time
So I took my medicine and went to sleep…
And now there’s buses, now there’s trains
They all run in to see
That she has gone over the planes
Beyond the mountains and the see
Somewhere it’s written, she’s awake all the time
So let’s take our medicine and go to sleep
And I wonder if he's fine, while I lost my sense of time
The night is pretty long and it's freezing
But than at dawn, he comes up to me
He's singing the song that I couldn't be
He's ready to rise where I start to fall
I hold my hands up high, but he's in the sky
Gone........
It's so still and I can't say nothing
Let's hear it from the wind, just sit and ask the wind
For it knows where he's been, but it's ceasing
A LONESOME VOICE IS A-WAILING
A lonesome voice is a-wailing on a sunday afternoon
"SLOW TRAIN TO NOWHERE" (2003)
ON THE BEACH
I’m waiting on a telephone
To ring a song so blue
A simple song that rings along
M y flesh and bones for you
For all the broken hearted
Make everything all right
But I lost my mind in the sun
I’m working hard, so very hard
Not to hear the news
But to think of her with her lover boy
I wonder what she feels
She could be just perfect
She could be all right
If only she knew how to smile
On the beach, nothing to do
On the beach I’ve got the same old feeling too
And if not about me, then all about you
I’m too old for rock’n roll,
I’m ready for the blues
And the sun goes down
But I’m still around
And it’s so good to be with you
Oh silver moon come shining over the water soon
And I’ll be in the mood for your love
BIG BOY CRY
I can’t stand not knowing where you are
And if you can’t come down, than please get out of town
So I could lay my head in total rest tonight
On a pillow full of life, some memories never die
This girl feeds me, she fill the holes in my head
Have you ever seen a big boy cry
So take a train, my love, for you can’t face it all
A long black train, my love, that never comes around
And that’ll be all there was, an empty hole of love
A history drifting off from a day that wouldn’t laugh
I’M NOT HIDING ANYMORE
I can sit on your floor
Without checking out your door
I start breathing more and more
I’m not hiding anymore
You cannot fool me with your freeway
You cannot fool me with your heyday
I will no longer run in vain, babe
I’m not hiding anymore
This is my game, runs through my veins
Returns again and again and again and again
Now look up to the sky, babe
Is there something more to see then clouds, babe
I’m not saying there’s only rain babe
But I’m not hiding anymore
I’m sick and tired walking sideways
No salvation came with wild days
Oh, there ain’t no such thing anyway
I’m not hiding anymore
And now you say you are in pain, babe
That all your actions are in vain, babe
I guess I shouldn’t talk this way, babe
But I’m not hiding anymore
MR. BIGSHOT
To talk like you is to be like you
Is to feel like you
In a way we could have the same dream too
Any day I’m in mindless wondering
I do my thing
In this dream we would think the same way too
I’ll be judgeless to what you’ve done to me
And I’ll be chainless, I’ll be me
And in a way I’ll be free
Hey, hey mr. Bigshot dance for me
It rains on you and it rains on me
It rains for long
It’s the same rain falling on everyone
On the ambassador, on any celebrity
But don’t get me wrong,
It’s the same rain falling on everyone
Across the little bridge
Over the small canal
It’s the borderline to this little city of mine
I look at them and they look at me
I could be all right
But it’s the right place at the wrong time
Oh woman, I know what you need
You don’t wanna be free
Love is simple and love is sweet
But it was never gentle to me
So what about this man, willing to die
Would he go lean on a friend
What about this monkey, imprisoned in mind
He takes the train to
Oh
A complete stranger to me
Whenever we meet you are perfectly sweet
But you suck the heart out of me
The busking grows ugly, competition is strong
The streets ain’t for dreaming no more
So to hell with your statues, to hell with this song
This ain’t what I’m living for
And the hookers they’d all love to spit in my face
The dealers call me a whore
But I have to be chained by your sweet embrace
Until I can’t breathe no more
I’m taking the subway and I’m thinking of home
The children must be sleeping by now
And I run for the bullets hiding in your guns
I fear the wrong side of the law
Well I must admit we had a good time
But I was fucked up and down
And I thought of you worth to be written in rhyme
Carved in the Merry-go-round
But now is the time that I’m leaving you
The pleasure never was mine
I look over my shoulder back in my car
And I see your pretty lights shine
CRAZY
I’m gonna sew you, babe, let the courtroom swell
Ain’t no one in there, babe, who’s gonna wish you well
I’ll walk out in celebration. Yes, you will be surprised
How all the friends we had together will be on my side
Crazy (out of your mind)
I’m gonna sew you, babe, I’ll go all the way
I’m gonna take the children, take them down to
Gonna buy me a caravan, live on a mountain high
I’ll be drinking in the village, every single night
Crazy (out of your mind)
Now I wonder why they threw me in a prison cell
A fucked up man just killed his woman
Oh Lord, help me pray
Lord, I miss my children, every second of the day
And if I’ll die I’ll take them with me
Oh Lord, show me the way
Crazy (out of your mind)
BIG BAD WORLD
Your little baby is sixteen now
And she’s out there on the street
So let your tears flow freely now
Let your poor, poor mother’s heart bleed
Your little baby is sixteen now
Sixteen years they have gone by
Now hum a little lullaby
For all we know is that you’ve tried
She’s your sweet baby, she’s your little girl
And she’s lost forever in this big bad world
Now she might be on a train
And jump off in between
Two showers of heavy rain
And she might see what we have never seen
She will grow older now
Much faster then you and me
She needs a shoulder now
For she will be forever falling free
WIZZARD
I’m on a slow train to nowhere, what it means I don’t know
And if I could lay my hands upon you, I would lay my sword aside
I did rocking and rolling in no time, I made the sun come up and go down, you know
If I could twist my legs around you, we would see the moon before it shined
I’m your wizard, babe
The good thing with dying is that I won’t be born again
And all the things that I desire will be buried by my side
All your fears will turn to laughter, but oh, you lost your biggest fan
I’ll be dancing in the daytime and I’ll be back for you tonight
I’m your wizard, babe
Mercy, oh mercy
FORSAKEN
I’m stuck in this room with you and you and you and you and you
I wanna be a part of, but I don’t know what to do
It’s true; I ain’t no good
I’m a pain in the ass and I walk in your way, I’m in a very bad mood
I don’t deserve no affection, I deserve pain
It’s true; I ain’t no good
Forsaken
There are no words left, now I’ve reached the depths of inner mankind
And now I finally got there I still need much more
But that’s what I had just left behind
DONE IT ALL WRONG
(see “1992”)
EPILOGUE
Stranded in the sun
An empty bottle of wine in my hand
I’m longing for shadow
I wanna be the drummer in the band
The smile in the mirror has faded
Has come to an end
Well any way, a good thing has happened to me
I’m going out with a friend
Oh babe, I miss you
"HOME ON A HORSE" (2000)
Always been living on the same energy
Sometimes I know it’s been too long since changes
Too long since anything different came along
Gimme gimme gimme enough of this
If I laid your anger down, would you pay my space in gold
Would you let go of me, now my golden cage got old
Too long since freedom, or anything different came along
Gimme gimme gimme enough of this
Soon you’ll be the one around my fence of all I say
Soon you’ll get me going down, down in your purple ways
Knock, knock on my beloved prison door
Gimme gimme gimme enough of this
Green grow the leaves, it’s raining. Step by if you want some
If not for the harvest party, be around if the sun comes
Too long since anything different came along
Gimme gimme gimme enough of this
Bull fighting, horse riding, flash lightning, I’ll take it all
Butterflies, cannonballs, aero planes, I’ll fly them all
Silver chains, concrete walls, iron bars I’ll break em all
Booby traps, waterfalls, cemeteries, I’ve walked them all
The long way up was no long way down
It’s easy to fall with someone like you around
The way you ran really knocked me down
And the hole in my heart will be forever unsung
Free to roam, rock’n roll
Free to roam, but I wanna come home
The dreaming of was better then the best
And to swallow you now would really do the rest
But that’s all behind me now, you just let me down
And there’s one thing I know now I’ve turned around…
I’ve dreamed this dream that everything turned to past
But I won’t look back, I won’t look back
I just wanna come home
The many burdens I did carry, the many streets that I did roam
And the love, love, love people gave me. It still left me blue
The water was wasted by the gallon and all the coins in the well dried up
So I bought all the things I thought I owed. It still left me blue
I wish I had the time to see all through
I wish I had the time to start a new
I wish I had the time for you
Please, love me always…
I said; ‘Would you like to be tied to a chain and cry all day like a dog’ .
She said; ‘It doesn’t bother me, you know, I don’t care.’
I got so mad, I stomped into the woods on that Sunday afternoon.
I resolved to sit there without food in order to go back and pack my things to leave.
In a few hours a voice was calling from the house for supper, but I wouldn’t come.
Till finally, there she came out to my tree and begged me to come back.
Well I was free in solitude, till I was free to settle down
Now I’m free in matrimony. It still left me blue
Wandering for ages, he said I’ve always tried to sing my song
I said; ‘Hey man, welcome to the goldmine. Watch the wheel goes round.
He knows so well the feeling of a spirit that is fading
I said; ‘Hey man, welcome to the goldmine. Watch the wheel go round.
If you’d see a real troubled man, take him to the source again
Lead him to the goldmine, turn him upside down
The freaky city overkill, they all come running down the hill
I said; ‘ Wow man, welcome to the goldmine. Watch the wheel go round.
And if you’re looking for an answer, take a look at all your friends here
There ain’t no one, no one here to countdown and stop the wheel go round
On a wasteland in a wasted dream, I weigh myself over and over again
Till you wait and see, wait and see, I’ll shut my mouth till the morning comes
And I can see your eyes full of stories, full of dreams, wasted dreams
I take the car with my children in the back, drive out of town
Upon a hill so that we can see the city, the city at night
Oh yes, they’re tired, but their eyes sparkle with wonder
And they asked me questions about the grown up people, dancing, drinking.
Well, I guess they pretend they are doing fine
So you need no one and no one will ever need you
Than what’s the use for me now to keep your name in mind
And if you keep being hurt by love and affection
And all approach will be rejected
Than life most likely will never be kind
You seem free from a distance, free from a distance
But in the heart of the matter, captured by love
You choose to have no one, no nothing, no friend
Like Old Shatterhand riding a horse into the blind
Untill your roots rot from under the soil that you walk on
The rain here will drown you and tomorrow will be forever behind
I got home on a morning late September
Many tears rolling down my face
It’s been my home as long as I remember
And I’d lie if I said it ain’t my place
I got home on a morning late September
And it seems as if it’s been just for days
For all the better moments I remember
Darling please, don’t send me away
It was my horse that didn’t want to run this way
It were my mates that I could not persuade
To let me go, let me go
Back in your arms to stay
Tell me babe, has life for you been changing
Is there still an empty place in your heart
That I could fill up to be your guardian angel
Or has someone else been tearing us apart
I can’t say that I’ve been the perfect man
I can’t tell you how sorry I am
But can you forgive me
Tell me that you can
Dark glasses on, my ass on the lawn
I’m counting sparrows, it’s a black sky now
One year’s gone and one’s to come
And it ain’t gonna be my favorite one
Winter’s on its way
Wherever you’ve been, I followed you down
I must have seen the world by now
Well gone is my horse, something’s so wrong
I’m stuck in the North and I’m stuck in this song
Winter’s on its way
Let the sunlight come by millions now
A million sparkles on my tired eyes
Let the gentle waves pull me down
Pull me down to where the sun will rise to stay.
I’m bored right now and I’m singing a song
It ain’t too much, but it has to be sung
Let’s all gather in a southbound train
Helter shelter for an autumn rain
Winter’s on its way
The one forbidden thing
Is judging upon whatever you see
So kiss the snake on the nose
Three times and your apple’s for free
Standing on a whale, fishing for wittings
Don’t you feel a fool, well you are a fool
Here is a light;
‘Know who you are and you are’
So God is your spirit and your spirit is God
Lay off your symbols and lay off your sword
Make no more promises for the sake of your Lord
Take no more possessions that you cannot afford
Blues might be the key to you
To the door that keeps hidden the blue
So give me some of your precious time
And I’ll try to sing this little heaven of mine
So cry out, cry out who you are
Know who you are and you are
THE WELL
(See ' Expectations')
FALLING FREE
(See ' Expectations')
This is not a revolution, this is not a home sweet home
This is not the resurrection, this is just a rock song
So take it…..
No longer wanting, just move your ass around
No longer waiting, just turn it upside down
And take it….
This here is your president, he’s talking there for you
Let him hear your hands clap, let him hear your voices to
He says; ‘Don’t you hang around here and you’ll find a lot of money
in the system that I’m running. You will find some culture to
Everyone is happy here, we did it all for you
So if you wanna join us, come on there’s work to do
It’s gonna break you heart in two. So take it
Everyone’s a criminal, but that’s all right with me
I’ve always been in favorite of everything for free
So take it….
"EXPECTATIONS" (1997)
COMES A TIME, COMES A LIGHT
(see “1992”’)
THE WELL
Beautiful and blue eyed, running round in rags
Running for them bloodhounds, burning down your flag
In the wild open field no one’s digging you a hole
Come lay your head at rest now in the bunkers of my soul
Lead me down to the well of your red river
Let me suck it dry and let the Lord be forgiven
My words they all seem worthless, my tunes more weak then strong
For how much of my freedom can you buy with this song
Come let your spirit speak now, a new dawn has begun
Come father blow away now all this hatred from your son
Newborn little girl can I look you in the eyes
For all I know is nothing and all I say disguise
Come let me rock your cradle, you’re better off with lies
For the truth is far too painful and too many people died
I feel this journey’s ending.
All the company has gone
All the seats are empty
I’ve been on this road too long
Can’t you see I’m hiding
While the moon reflects my tears
For too long I’ve been riding
And the feeling disappears
Lead me on, help me off the freeway
It’s a dead end road………
Now the car starts bending
As I slowly turn the wheel
I watch the night surrender
But how will I know that you’ll be here
When the night will reappear
And my mind will be unclear
Could you take the trouble
Could you free my eyes from fear
MR. NEEL’S DANCE
I drove into the nightlife with just one single thing on my mind
The moon seemed full forever and the lights of the city made me blind
So I could only feel the hunger for a woman who would treat me just kind
Dry my tears, wash my scars away tonight
Oh, Cindy please, don’t call me no more
The sound of the phone hurts just like danger knocking on my door
Oh, Cindy please, don’t call me no more
You’re not the reason, you’re not the one I’m living for
So I was drifting even further away from home in my car
And in this late night movie I could barely make it to the bar
So I stared into a beer can, tried to meditate my soul into a star
Ain’t that far, ain’t that far out, my friend
The night it drew a picture that I just had to see
And I stared into a cradle, I saw a monster looking just like me
Oh, the weight of this fiction, how forever ready I’m to sleep
And this real life figure Cindy, how forever she will weep
With the stars, with the wind
FALLING FREE
Darkness surrounds us and brittle brains we are
Nothing can stop us from falling from a star
And yonder only skies, blank spots in our minds
Spirits are crying an endless aching “why”
Oblivion’s appealing for nothing seems worth to try
But yes, I’m doing fine. All this lies behind
And I’m falling free
Sometimes I feel like I’ll leave it all behind
Dust on my lungs and black smoke around my mind
And yonder only skies, blank spots in our minds
Little by little I stumble to your door
Leaving the dust of my failures on your floor
But yes, I’m doing fine. All this lies behind
And I’m falling free
A million years late and a load on my shade
No fuel to create and I crash into fate
With one way to escape
It’s one step through the gates of my last dream
I drink myself to sleep, mama
HEAR THE WIND COMES ROLLING HOME
Listen, the wind comes rolling home
With stories long unknown
For a long time it has blown
Now lays down in a song
Sounds from long before the word
That came to us and cursed
All of us who heard
The beauty of the song
Hear the wind is rolling home
Watch, the sun is on its way
Forever here to stay
And we don’t have to say a word
Just sing a song
The time won’t slip away no more
A breeze to blow our ships ashore
No sign of night, no sign of war
Just the sense of sailing home
Drink the dew fresh from the lawn
We’ve been waiting far too long
Drink the dew before it’s gone
We’ve been waiting far too long
GREEN FIELDS
Sometimes you feel that it is time to get that cloud out of your mind
So search the skyline through the windshield for a saviour of any kind
And than three motorcycle boys, passing on the bridge
Outlined black on the deep red sun going down beyond
The green fields of my country
With hungry headlights and a radio station on my way
Waiting on some magic or sensation of a sweet light rain, and than…
You know a story of a boy with his new little toy
On wheels, on the ground, oh Lord give me some gasoline
That I may ride this country a million times around,
Starting right now
So this is true in stories that you read when you are young
And now it happens just before my eyes and in this song…
Three motorcycle boys……
VISIONS FROM HELL
Save this boat from sinking though the game seems done
Save our souls from shrinking though all hope seems gone
The chaos is strong and the nights are long
And there’s no one in this wilderness that could do us no wrong
If people talk salvation, than wish them they’re right
Cause even if salvation’s just a shimmering light
The dream is justified and it makes it better to fight
Then to sit on our asses and choke in the night
Bring wisdom, bring wisdom for the chosen few
That must lead the many on their way through
You can call this sickness ignorance, you can call it what you want
You can call your life a misery, well if that’s what you want
You’ll get it for free, but ain’t it easy to see
That life is running backwards if you don’t do what you feel
Those who’re preaching liberty mean nothing to me
Cause preaching brings no guarantee if the preacher’s not free
So just be good to yourself and to anyone else
And forgot what I told here, speak for yourself
It’s hard to say anything if you see what I see
It’s hard to say anything and if it was up to me
We’d ignore what is said and we’d clean our heads
From the books that we read to live it instead
Sleep well, sleep well
May you’re dreams be free from those visions from hell
FEAR
Brittle eyes in this cruel, cruel world of action
Brittle eyes of unbelief
Brittle eyes in this fatal world of fiction
She wants to walk on water but goes underneath
A river is no river if that river’s gone dry
You’re just challenging your liver
And you know you’re gonna die
A river is no river if that river’s gone dry
Brittle eyes in this steel and concrete jungle
The engine of her life’s now put into another gear
Hidden visions she points out with her fingers
She’s just too young to smell the danger here
See the tissue on the table
See her spitting on the floor
All her senses now gone stone dead
The last twitching on the floor
Is there life in this bloodshed
Is there life in this whore
Fear
SECTION 29
(See “1992”)
BABY BLUE
I’m lying on a sofa at a party of a friend
A lady on each side of me, a reefer in my hand
The lady on my right says ‘I’m at your command’
“You can do what you want with me” I said; ‘Please understand
That I’m not at all after you, I’m looking for my Baby Blue”
Now crazy Celia, she’s sitting left of me
Says ‘I’ve got a big car, will you drive with me’
I said; ‘No, no, no, drive with anyone but me,
You must be thinking you’re on your way to be free
Well, who do you think you are talking to
I’m looking for my Baby Blue’
Now speedy
But I can’t seem to find the pupils in his eyes
He keeps mumbling I could be next to see his paradise
Well I don’t need your medical advice
I don’t need nothing from this store of you
I’m looking for my Baby Blue
Now college boy Harry says he’s got this strange idea
Baby Blue was in the kitchen, waiting with my beer
She gave it to another guy with whom she disappeared
So I kicked Harry to the floor left him trembling with fear
And stood up from the sofa saying ‘Good night to you
I’m leaving for my Baby Blue’
So I walked into the garden and the moon was shining bright
I found my Baby Blue in the shadow of the light
I caught her with a rock star, I invited him to fight
The rock star and my Baby Blue, they both died in the night
And next came a cop, he said; ‘I’m looking for you’
‘Well, I was just looking for my Baby Blue’
Twenty five days later I stood up in court
For a judge who must have won an academy award
He says; ‘this case looks clear to me, I can’t keep it short
Tomorrow you can choose between hanging and the sword’
I said; ‘No, no, no, is there no mercy left in you
I’ve done it all for my Baby Blue
Next morning I awoke between the blankets oh so clean
Baby Blue was next to me, oh my candy, oh my cream
‘No never will I kill you’, I awoke her with a scream
and half asleep she asked me; ‘did you have a bad dream’
so listen to a wise guy warning you;
‘Always keep a close watch on your Baby Blue’
De Nacht
De laatste trein rolt binnen en het wordt al stiller hier
Daar gaan de laatste stakkers met hun koffers vol papier
Ik schreeuw 'krijg de tyfus tering' en ik giet me vol met bier
De dagen kun je krijgen, maar de nacht is niet van jou
Want de nacht zit vol met wijven die verrekken van de kou
En die kijken niet naar mietjes met hun broek in een vouw
Met dat slap geouwehoer van 'schat ik hou van jou'
Oh, het donker is m'n deken en de stilte is mijn vrouw
In de nacht draait de wereld andersom
In de nacht staar ik eenzaam naar de Dom
In de nacht wacht ik tot de klokken slaan
Want dan weet ik dat het klootjesvolk weer naar z'n werk zal gaan
Ik verrek niet van de honger maar van de eenzaamheid
En ik zit hier stom te zwijgen met een afgelikte meid
Die haar dope niet kan betalen en ze zuigt zich uit het krijt
Met wel honderd geile kerels, maar haar lippen zijn nog rood
Ze krijst 'geef me nog een lijntje want ik vries hier bijna dood
En m'n kont moet blijven draaien want ik sta twee ruggen rood
Bij die eikel met die bontjas, bij die achterlijke kloot
Die al m'n gaten volspuit, morgen spuit ik hem vol met lood
En ik wil maar niet dood, geen hond hier die me hoort
De wereld op een oor, God ik wil dat je me vermoordt
Want er is niemand in de stad, niemand in dit oord
Niemand die ooit zeggen zal; 'Ik heb van jou gehoord'
En ik wil maar niet dood …….
"NOW IS THE TIME" (1995)
I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS
You dragged me into this thing that I knew nothing about
It’s a woman song
All those surprises within that I feel nervous about
Being left alone, you never see it coming
I can’t believe this, I can not deal with you
I can’t believe this, this is the double truth
I can’t believe this, mad about you
Here comes the mystery man that I’ll be raving about
In my woman song
Ain’t it a miracle, son, that I am talking about
She chained his heart and soul and he never saw it coming
I can’t believe this, he can not deal with you
I can’t believe this, this is the double truth
I can’t believe this, there must be something new
I can’t believe this, nothing about you that he knew
I can’t believe this, mad about you
At the age of sixty five he died on a morning
The night had been cold and it came without warning
The pain that had caused that he could take it no more
So he took all he had in a plastic bag
And he stepped into the rain with an aching head
He accosted some people while begging for a fag
Which wasn’t very easy cause he smelled so bad
But he knew he would get his final cigarette
Before he would shoot the bullet in his head
I can’t believe this
SPREADING DUST
Dreams of silver failure, dreams of gold
I sleep on someone’s gravestone, maybe I’m getting old
But I feel the summer sun and I feel like mamas son
And it feels like everything has just begun
This night is a mystery to me, a sleepy song
A visionary mistress kissed me on my tongue
I dream this to survive, in this dream I’m still alive
And it feels like everything has just begun
I’m spreading dust around my shade
A floating substance to create
A clearer sight upon my fate
I’m spreading dust around my shade
Unwritten laws to go by straight
A big black cross through love and hate
I’m spreading dust around my shade
She is the see, she is the sun
She is the shadow over everything wrong with me
So come on, shake your troubled mind
Wander clear tonight
Light your torch on everything that’s just begun
TURN ME ON
(see “Scarfish love on wings of mojo wire”)
SUNNY HOLIDAY
Tomorrow my curtains will be down and I’ll be sleeping
I’m sorry, when finally you’re around I’ll be sleeping
I’m a mayfly and I’m sitting on a bomb, I wish I was sleeping
Forget things until the strain has gone, I wish I was sleeping
Could I choose ? You tell me that I could, well turn me loose
Hey hey, can anyone explain where a man can simply change
A cloud that’s full of rain for a sunny holiday
She’ll call me, thirst thing after dawn, when I’ll be dreaming
She’ll squeeze me or even bang the drum, but I’ll be dreaming
And I’d hold her in my arms in an old romantic bar, I wish I was dreaming
I wanna go to bed, but I’m sitting up instead, I wish I was sleeping
All I ever needed is a dream and you can feed it
Show me a place to settle down
No stone or I can heat it, no storm or I can beat it
No way that I could let you down
CLEAR
It’s clear to me
I’m starting to loose, but what can I do
Maybe I could change my old points of view
But all that I knew was all that was here was here for you
Sometimes I just need a little relieve
Sometimes I need you to do something to me
Tired but free, starting to feel
Maybe it’s something happening to me
All that I see seems to be real
Maybe it’s something happening to be
Something to last a little longer
Then anything anyone has ever meant to me
Maybe this love could make me bleed
So why don’t you show me what you need
Maybe that’s easier to me
One thing I know is all I can be
All I can show comes straight back to me
Maybe in love, maybe I’m free
Look up above, the sky comes to me
And I won’t be weak, yes I can be strong
As I can be a freak as I can be wrong
It’s clear to me
SHOOT YOUR ARROW
Walk a circle with me, walk a lifetime with me
Join me barefoot underneath the endless sky
Drink the bottle with me, drink the whole night on me
Shoot your arrow underneath the question why
And it’s all right to take your time
In this night you will be mine
And you will stand this moonlight drive
All by my side
And it’s all right to come my way
Let your light shine night and day
I’ll show you words that you can feel
That I can’t say
Bring them roses to me,
Ring them church bells for me
Shoot your arrow deep into this heart of mine
Take this burden off me
Fake them stories for me
I’ll be listening to you till the end of time
THE FLY
I don’t feel nothing, I just carry on
I don’t know nothing, I just carry on
I don’t know
I don’t sleep lately, I just carry on
I don’t feel nothing, I just carry on
I don’t know
See the fly in my system, bring me wisdom
The fly, hit it, kill it, smother it with love
If you wanna know than you’ll never know
So hust follow me down
Cause you never know, you might gonna grow
Till I cover you with flowers
I don’t sleep lately, I just carry on
RED IS BEAUTIFUL
(see”1992”)
FAME AND DIGNITY
So this is rock’n roll today
Well, it ain’t got a grip on me
Sorry, I just won’t throw my life away
I wanna die with fame and dignity
So come on, all you kids in the world
So come on, all lazy rotten would-be’s, crawl out of your holes
Cause I’m lonely just like you
I sense cold calculation
While all I want is to be free
You may stone me all through the nation
But I will die with fame and dignity
Everybody seems to loose it just a little bit more
Every single day there’s another man dead on the floor
So tell me who’s proving me wrong
Tell me who’s gonna be so strong
Than I wanna be you, I just wanna be you
And I wanna die with fame and dignity
DANGER EVEN HERE
Life rolls easy in a lower gear
I know I’m running but I’m still not near
I fight a struggle that is stuck in here
I damn the Lord for living alone
I’m feeling ragged and I feel like a stone
It feels like none of us is ever coming home
Danger even here and I shiver
One step forwards got me further behind
I guess I’m lacking 20th Century mind
I’m stuck with fables and plenty of time
Some may love me but I cannot show
Real compassion cause it’s always No
When people get to close to the bone
I’m not home…..
Danger even here and I shiver
Long time ago
What I’ve seen is what I’ll dream
Mother, carry me home
Danger even here… long gone
WHEN THE HEARSE COMES DOWN
A shiver glides from the TV screen
On the palest face you’ve ever seen
A shock of daylight kills your queen
When the hearse comes down
Little children stay inside
A cold breeze runs through town tonight
Danger’s lurking from outside
When the hearse comes down
Run, run, run,
I can almost smell the gun
Run, run, run,
You can call this black car innocent
But there’s always someone missing
After it’s gone
I hear my name in a dreadful dream
It’s this black car
In between two white horses
Fresh and clean
There’s a shaddow on this future grave
So I can’t read the dead man‘s name
It’s someone else, not me I pray
When the hearse comes down
A million whispers in this yard
It’s more than I can take
Time’s just a friend of mine
Time’s not the problem, man
Time’s just something going by
Ever since the day I came
I count the days and I count the ways
To get by, to get high
Well man, that’s many ways
I’m on my way to become a man
An endless road behind me and one ahead
I’m on my way to become a man
And time is just a friend
Time’s just a friend of mine
I won’t run away, I’m doing fine
And freedom’s just a word that you can write
Endless are the days of life
And I’ll do my thing, so I survive
I won’t sit and wait ‘till everything’s allright
I’m on my way to become a man
An endless road behind me and one ahead
I’m on my way to become a man
And time is just a friend
Hear me lie in setting up a song
Hear me lie as the prodigal son
Hear me lie that a man shouldn’t cry
Hear me cry in another sad song
Hear me cry in the morning sun
Hear me cry that a man shouldn’t die
Time’s just a friend of mine
Time’s not the problem, man
Time’s just something going by
WHAT HAVE YOU GOT IN RETURN
What have you got, what have you got in return
Here behind my window, where it’s save and narrow
I’ll cry these tears for you
Here in my kingdom, with candlelights on
I’ll do these songs for you, but what have you got in return
Don’t switch the lights on, when you’re in the white room
And I’ll do these songs for you
And I’ll drink on your health and I’ll kill my own self
I can do this all for you, but what have you got in return
Here on this graveyard, watch with upper regard
And tell me “ what are you ?”
Have you finally found out, now you can scream your life out
And I’ll cease for you, but what have you got in return
You can clap your hands now, we could be such friends now
But is that all that we can feel
Could you express yourself now, or will you point your eyes down
Is that all that you can feel, is that what you got in return…
RED IS BEAUTIFUL
Day in day out, we have to face the rituals
Of everything we want and eveything we’ll never gain
You to be me, me to be you and everyone together too
Oh, it hurts, it hurts at dusk, it hurts at night
But it flickers, it’s giving light, shimmering at dawn
Thinking thing, you’re everything, everything but life
Troubled seas, two enemies and in between a knife
Everything is slippery, but give to me, talk to me on ice
Oh, it hurts, it hurts at dusk, it hurts at night
But it flickers, it’s giving light, shimmering at dawn
Carry a gun, point it on me… I won’t run
Carry a gun, shoot it on me…. Red is beautiful
Living in spiritual, giving in when time comes thundering
And everything gets nothing when life stops
Filling in the hidden things, ending life with red drops
Day in day out, we have to face the rituals
Of everything we want and eveything we’ll never gain
You to be me, me to be you and everyone together too
Oh, it hurts, it hurts at dusk, it hurts at night
But it flickers, it’s giving light, shimmering at dawn
Carry a gun, point it on me… I won’t run
Carry a gun, shoot it on me…. Red is beautiful
COMES A TIME, COMES A LIGHT
Tell all the ones whose days are done
Watching you with mighty scorn
You’ve done more then your dad had done
Before the day that you were born
Leave them with a mighty thorn
That’s sharp enough to cry for
Remember school is over now
And even if you don’t know how
Make sure that you will stay unbound
And if not so than otherwise
The job that keeps you occupied
Must be damned good enough to die for
Many memories to fight, many blue spots in the sky
Comes a time, comes a light, I’m gonna be allright
And if I’ll try with all my might to drag myself through the night
Comes a time, comes a light, I’m gonna be allright
And all the girls you fancy well
Try to lure you in their shell
Lighter then the sight of hell
Smaller then a prison cell
Better praise one woman well
If you wanna have someone to hide for
I’m looking at a Christmas tree
And I see myself as you see me
Oh Jesus, set my spirit free
I don’t care for what belongs to me
But all the things that I can keep
I’m willing to pay my price for
Now watch me sitting in between
The devil and the guillotine
I’ve seen more then you’ll ever see
But I still don’t drive a limousine
Guess life is hard for you and me
Gaining none of all the things that we apply for
Enviromental talk is hot
Another president is shot
I hear you masters care a lot
About all the ones the world forgot
I hear you’re worried, well I’m not
There’s many other things that I can cry for
HOW LOW CAN YOU GO
Watch the beggar on the stairs
Give a coin and he won’t care
About you busking in his home
You’ve got a million worlds to roam
While the woman waits at home
And you’ll find yourself alone
In an old East-Berlin bar
To imagine you’re a star
As low as the sky at night
Down and out in the neonlight
Of a station hall near the Berlin wall
How low can you go
Am Reichstag, auf’m Ku’dam
An dem Brandenburger tor
He plays his guts out to some tourists
To get some money for a whore
Well how low can you go
For a minute in a show
That is dangerous and unreal
Tell me how does it feel As low………..
And you’re singing furious lyrics
On the rhythm of a train
That is rolling through the city
Gives you shelter for the rain
You allready feel the shivers
You allready feel the pain
Of a chemical obsession
That’s an endless summer rain
Throws you’re heart in the oven
And your power through the drain
How low can you go
If you live your life in vain As low…..
SECTION 29
You say you are receiving a feeling deep inside
A holy wisdom in a vision, visiting at night
Well as far as I’m concerned this is wisdom of the wine
So I propose we’d call your vision ‘section 29’
In section 29 only spirits are awake
They don’t like alcoholics and they listen to Nick Drake
Well the last thinhg is forgiven, cause me I do the same
But let me have my liquor when I party in the rain
There’s too many things you tell me that I don’t like
There’s too many words for just one night
There’s too many things you tell me that I don’t like
Go back to what I’ve called your ‘ section 29’
Too much of the good things is too bad for the brain
Believe me I’ve seen many people drive themselves in sane
They come to you and say I am Jesus, I control your mind
Well let me call this mental sickness ‘section 29’
A rat is a noble creature, tight on its four feet
The only thing it cares about is garbage it can eat
So if you might run into one, be carefull when you speak
It won’t hear your moral complications and kills you when you’re weak
Now what was that you talked about, philosophy eased your pain ?
You shiver in your shoes for the world you’re in today
Now look at what a fool you’ve been to call your dream a name
If science won’t bring any fortune than why should you explain
Well I guess this shit will happen again and again
Go leave this place, live your life and take it as a man
You sit and talk as if someone put something in your wine
I guess it’s time we’re leaving ‘section 29’
POOR CLARISE
She sit on her terrace in a rocking chair
The light of the moon shines on her golden hair
She’s crying over losses that seem all unfair
And the radio is sending old memories in the air
Clarise just gets older
Clarise counts the days going by
Clarise now recalls what they had told her
And know she knows that all her lovers lied
She knows she gave her best years to chimeras
First class dreamers they were
And every time they lured her in her mazes
With lovesongs, poems and furs…. Poor Clarise
She was seventeen when Terry was her lover
She replaced for him his shots of heroine
And Gerald was a banker from the country
When his wife went out he called her in
And Robert was her lover who had children
But he never gave her children of her own
And no one ever made it just to stay with her
Now she’s frightened to get old all alone
Clarise has been waiting all night
In the way she has waited all her life
For someone who would just come by
To say “ Clarise, you’re beautiful tonight” Poor Clarise….
SOMETHING MISSING IN ME
She says "my life is a mess, nothing less, nothing more"
Let me sigh on her wings for a while
She tries to forget all that's said and all that's done
Let me ask her one more time
Is it a man you desire or just a dream that you lie
Is it something I could be all the time
And she answers all ceasing,
but her looks they are teasing me
Like there's something I can't see
Like it's got to be there's something missing in me
She takes what she sees without ever asking please
I know it's just something in her way
And she grows in her grieve while she tries to believe
All men are just thieves in her game
But tonight as she can't sleep, she falls down on her knees
Praying 'Lord, send an angel on my way'
DONE IT ALL WRONG
Many times I wonder, sitting in my chair
About everything I’ve done, though never much too long
And every time I stop to think, there’s music in the air
And it seems to me I’ve done it all wrong
I’ve gotta find me work, though I know it’s hard to find
So I get myself together with a song
Oh, I don’t wanna find me work it is twisting in my mind
And it seems to me I’ve done it all wrong
Say to me, say to me, tell me I’ve done it all right
Say to me, say to me, it’s just another mix up in my mind
The one you consider young is mostly very old
And the one you consider old is mostly young
Mixed up between both of them, my skin allready sold
It seems to me I’ve done it all wrong
Many times I”ve asked myself “tweedly tweedly dum”
Many time I’ve asked myself “ where do I belong”
The sky turns grey and you could say my feelings are getting numb
And it seems to me I’ve done it all wrong